A perspective. My view of a different way of LIVING!

I never understood why a person decides to forgo the 'conveniences' that man has to offer such as the Amish do. Why suffer through cold winters when all a person has to do is turn up the themostat? In the summertime, why not sit under a cool air conditioner with feet propped up, cold glass of soda pop in one hand and the tv remote in the other instead of playing in the yard burning off calories or leaning over the fence talking to your neighbor about his beautiful thriving field of corn. Psalms 107: 37, "They sow their fields, plant their vineyards, and harvest their bumper crops."

If I want something to eat all I have to do is pick up my cell-phone and order a ooey gooey cheese pizza made by someone else' dirty hands. I mean, what is so great about eating the food you grown? It takes forever to ripen on the vine anyway. No, the 'other people' want to toil in the fields dust till dawn by the sweat of their brow. They do it the hard way. No gas powered tiller for them, thank-you very much. I have my fast food anyway. I just pull up to the drive-thru and order myself a heart attack in a bag. Psalms 107: 9 For he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things. Umm, fast food is good for the taste buds right? right? helloooo?

I don't have time to feed the chickens, hoe the fields, make the same old boring clothes that never go out of style. I am to busy playing on the computer or working at some meaningless 9 to 5 job just to have money to pay all the bills that the 'other people' don't have. I don't have time to help my neighbor when he gets sick. Let him suffer on his own. I don't know him anyway, he never comes over for a visit. I read my Bible sometimes when I am not busy. Well, I do know atleast one of the ten commanments, " You shall love your neighbor as yourself" I think it is in Exodus.

Sure, they are all about family. The 'other people' don't practice birth control. My guess is they have so many kids so that they have enough hands to work in the fields. Got to feed those hungry mouths. Let them work their fingers to the bone. The only lesson those kids will learn is how to work hard for a living. As the Bible plainly states "If a man will not work, he shall not eat." 2 Thessalonians 3:10 I got family too, so be it that one is in another room texting and the other is out running the streets with his buddies. I got a good man. He just happens to be taking a nap cause he worked down at the factory making those modern conviences that his fellow man 'needs.' We'll all get together at a holiday maybe if the Lord lets us live another day. I have faith I will be here, He tells us so in Matthew 6:34 "Take no thought for tomorrow; for tomorrow shall take thought for the things of itself." Oops, guess I better do a more studying and less reading of my romance novels. Joshua 1:8 "Do not let this Book of the Law [Scripture] depart from you mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will become prosperous and successful."

I know what the Bible states about being vain {Proverbs 31:30} "....beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised." But God, I need my make-up and my hair dye. I have to cover up these wrinkles and grey that I get from worrying whether the repo man is coming today and my house is going into foreclosure. I need my hot shower in the morning cause I stayed up all night wondering if tomorrow is going to be the big layoff day. I mean , I know God commands us not to worry {Philippians 4:6} “Do not be anxious [do not worry] about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." I pray about these problems; afterall we need a roof over our hand and my kids need food in the belly.

God isn't going to hand us everything on a silver platter. He provides us with a brain to know what we need do to survive in the world. We must work in order to eat. He gives us a spouse so that we will have a companion. He gives us children for they are a blessing to him. He gives us the rain to water our crops. He gives us what we need. (3 John 1:2)" Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.'

After my visit to an Amish community, I see that they are truly the happy ones. I am humbled by their hard work ethics. They have it all and all they need. I am ashamed of all the things I want and do not need. Lord forgive my selfish ways. Forgive me for I have sinned. Matthew 9:6 " But that ye may know that the Son of man hath power on earth to forgive sins"

Stuck in the middle

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So here I am. Stuck in the middle of four other siblings. What does it mean to by birth order? I would have hoped nothing since parents should not play favorites or treat their children any different one from the other. But, if one had of lived my life, then one would know that I in no way enjoyed being stuck in the middle. Most of the meaness my mom dished out was upon my head. Most of the ignoring by my dad was doled out to me. Can I say it was because I was stuck in the middle? I don't know, I was just a kid for goodness sake. Right now, at age 44 I am in the middle of trying to figure out who I am and my place in life. Being stuck in this position in life is hard but I will be postive and pull through. Afterall, at the great crossroads of life, "I took the one less traveled and that has made all the difference."

Quote by R. Frost, one of my favorite authors.

According to blogthings I am a Ceasar Salad type person
I am very popular (WRONG! not in the least) and easy to love. I strike a cord with people.I am friendly and careful not to offend anyone. (TRUE TRUE) I try hard to get along and while I may avoid controversy, I am still very sincere. People love that about me . I am dependable and steady. (yep, that I am) With me, what you see is what you get.

Well, that was an intersesting quiz. Who makes these things? Must be a psychiatrist!! Most of it is true except or the popular thing. Never have been and never want to be. I am just me. Now I am hungry. Where is my cook?...I WANT A SALAD!! LOL

What does summer mean to me

Summer is a time for relaxing on the front porch swing. I love peace and quite. I do not like stress. I love living in the country. This swing describes all three things about me 1) I live on a dead end street so this is one place I can relax and enjoy the peace and quite. 2) When I feel stressed I come here and just swing and enjoy the cool breeze and think of nothing. 3) I like to listen to the bugs, frogs and crickets playing their evening music. It is relaxing to watch the fireflies and star gaze. No place I would rather be than in the country!

Summer is a time for fresh fruits and veggies. One of my favorite meals is buttermilk cornbread, fried squash, fresh purple hull peas and a slice of juicy plump tomatoe. For lunch, take a couple slices of bread, mayo and a tomatoe. Dash with salt and pepper and now your eating a real country sandwich. It is hard work in the having a garden but I enjoy the fruits of my labor. I tried a planter garden this year and it did not produce much. Next year I will have a garden in the ground, the way I usually do.

Summer is also a time to enjoy water sprinkers, swimming pools, and camping at the lake. My children are grown now and have moved out so I thought these activities would be no more but ow that my grandson is older, he makes it more enjoyable. Just give him a dip in the water or an icee and he is one happy camper.

Wednesday, 29 July 2009
I love who I am becoming. I made a change for the better and life is good. oh, I have my bad days......who doesn't.....but life is like sewing, when you make a mistake just start a new thread.

I had a great time with Braydon these past couple days. I got his picture made and he was such a good boy. I spent to much on the package but it is worth it. I love the little stinker. He has learned to count to three and saying new words everyday. The newest one being booger...lol

Scrapping projects are going good. I scrapped 5 pages for July. That is great considering I lost my mojo. To get some motivation, I have joined several challenges and hosting a couple.

Yesterday, I was organizing my photos and it is a chore. Note to self....get pictures developed more often cause at my age I sometimes forget the dates photos were taken...lol. I have roughly 2000 pictures still to develop.

Speaking of photos, here is a couple (at top) with the new technique I learned...distract the subject..lol Now,if I could only figure out how to work this computer!

butterfly poems and quotes

A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam. And for a brief moment its glory and beauty belong to our world. But then it flies on again,and though we wish it could have stayed, we feel so lucky to have seen it."
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We all start as caterpillars but slowly grow until one day we are butterflies.
As I have watched you grow, I have seen you turn into a fine person and a beautiful young woman.
by Warren Hagey
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As the Lord had finished creating the earth, something was missing so he chose pieces from all the flowers, threw them into the sky and blew life into them and the butterflies were born. _____________________

Look through eyes of hope and see a butterfly inside the caterpillar, hope knows that beauty is waiting to be born in the unlikeliest places.
Thea Miller Ryan
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Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond yourgrasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you. ~Nathaniel Hawthorne
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Dear butterfly,Majestic monarch of the sky,
holder of universal secrets and reasons why
,color my canvas, touch my heart before I die,
to live in joy, teach me how never to say good-bye.

As you flutter by, you hear me sigh,
things missed because I forgot to try,
on your serene beauty I can rely,
oh what celestial magic you do supply.

Once you did struggle to be free,
you turned your life around to show me,
amazing my angel how you heard my plea,
you've cocooned my mind so I can see.

Lets fly together both as one,
and sore beyond time, once upon,
our silken wings God has spun,Souls entwined,
our infinite journey has just begun.

by Michael Levy Born

I am changing for myself.

I am working on my negative and pessimestic attitude, not because of what someone said or done, I am doing for myself. I need to feel better for myself so that I will better at relationships. I need to heal the hurts in my life and try to let them go. I need to feel better about myself because life is to short for pain and bitterness.

It will be a long journey to recovery but with hope and faith in my life, I can conquer the demon that rears his ugly head. I have been fighting this battle for over four decades but I will win the war.

Steps to change:

1. Weight loss of 20 pounds and rid myself of the flab that hangs on. By looking better on the outside, I will have a better attitude.
2. Run/exercise daily. Working out increases the feel good chemicals in my brain and along with my medication, this will be part of therapy. Note self>buy ipod.
3. See a mental doctor to talk about my past childhood.
4. Attend church service. I know that being around other people with faith will help me heal.
5. Journal journal journal!!!!
6. Attend Friday night crops at Vickies. Being around other people with same interests is good for developing friendships.
7. Read more books for they are my friends.
8. Smile more. I do not want frown lines.
9. Show a RAK (random act of kindness) daily. Doing small things for others lifts not only their spirits but mine as well.
10. Show my husband the love and support he needs. He has never failed me and I do not want to push him futher away.
11. Declutter the house. Getting rid of clutter declutters the mind.
12. Send cards/letters/e-mails to my friends.
13. Continue with my hobbies because it helps me take my mind off things.
14. Stop cursing, telling inappropiate jokes and gossip.
15. Look in the mirror each morning and tell myself I love you, you are a good person, have a great day.

As I think of more postive things, I will blog it here as a reminder to myself.

:)

rules of the universe

RULES OF THE UNIVERSE

1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pilland a laxative on the same night.2. Don't worry about what people think; they don't do it very often.3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymorethan standing in a garage makes you a car.4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.5. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.6. A person, who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a niceperson. (This is very important. Pay attention! It never fails.)7. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.8. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.9. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks.10. A conscience is what hurts when all of your other parts feel so good.11. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway.12. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.Embrace your differences. Love each other.13. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.14. A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand.15. Middle age is when broadness of the mindand narrowness of the waist change places.16. Opportunities always look bigger after they have passed.17. Junk is something you've kept for yearsand throw away three weeks before you need it.18. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.19. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables youto recognize a mistake when you make it again.20. By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.21. Thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator.22. Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the realworld.23. It ain't the jeans that make your butt look fat.24. There is a very fine line between 'hobby' and 'mental illness.'25. People who want to share their religious views with youalmost never want you to share yours with them.26. You should not confuse your career with your life.27. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.28. Never lick a steak knife.29. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.30. You will never find anybody who can give you a clearand compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.31. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggeststhat you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual babyemerging from her at that moment.32. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender,religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside,we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.33. Your friends love you anyway.34. Never be afraid to try something new.Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.35. How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?

Thanks to an online neighbor for the rules.

Here I am trying post things on my blog. We will see if I stick to it.