Wednesday, 29 July 2009
I love who I am becoming. I made a change for the better and life is good. oh, I have my bad days......who doesn't.....but life is like sewing, when you make a mistake just start a new thread.

I had a great time with Braydon these past couple days. I got his picture made and he was such a good boy. I spent to much on the package but it is worth it. I love the little stinker. He has learned to count to three and saying new words everyday. The newest one being booger...lol

Scrapping projects are going good. I scrapped 5 pages for July. That is great considering I lost my mojo. To get some motivation, I have joined several challenges and hosting a couple.

Yesterday, I was organizing my photos and it is a chore. Note to self....get pictures developed more often cause at my age I sometimes forget the dates photos were taken...lol. I have roughly 2000 pictures still to develop.

Speaking of photos, here is a couple (at top) with the new technique I learned...distract the subject..lol Now,if I could only figure out how to work this computer!

butterfly poems and quotes

A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam. And for a brief moment its glory and beauty belong to our world. But then it flies on again,and though we wish it could have stayed, we feel so lucky to have seen it."
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We all start as caterpillars but slowly grow until one day we are butterflies.
As I have watched you grow, I have seen you turn into a fine person and a beautiful young woman.
by Warren Hagey
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As the Lord had finished creating the earth, something was missing so he chose pieces from all the flowers, threw them into the sky and blew life into them and the butterflies were born. _____________________

Look through eyes of hope and see a butterfly inside the caterpillar, hope knows that beauty is waiting to be born in the unlikeliest places.
Thea Miller Ryan
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Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond yourgrasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you. ~Nathaniel Hawthorne
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Dear butterfly,Majestic monarch of the sky,
holder of universal secrets and reasons why
,color my canvas, touch my heart before I die,
to live in joy, teach me how never to say good-bye.

As you flutter by, you hear me sigh,
things missed because I forgot to try,
on your serene beauty I can rely,
oh what celestial magic you do supply.

Once you did struggle to be free,
you turned your life around to show me,
amazing my angel how you heard my plea,
you've cocooned my mind so I can see.

Lets fly together both as one,
and sore beyond time, once upon,
our silken wings God has spun,Souls entwined,
our infinite journey has just begun.

by Michael Levy Born

I am changing for myself.

I am working on my negative and pessimestic attitude, not because of what someone said or done, I am doing for myself. I need to feel better for myself so that I will better at relationships. I need to heal the hurts in my life and try to let them go. I need to feel better about myself because life is to short for pain and bitterness.

It will be a long journey to recovery but with hope and faith in my life, I can conquer the demon that rears his ugly head. I have been fighting this battle for over four decades but I will win the war.

Steps to change:

1. Weight loss of 20 pounds and rid myself of the flab that hangs on. By looking better on the outside, I will have a better attitude.
2. Run/exercise daily. Working out increases the feel good chemicals in my brain and along with my medication, this will be part of therapy. Note self>buy ipod.
3. See a mental doctor to talk about my past childhood.
4. Attend church service. I know that being around other people with faith will help me heal.
5. Journal journal journal!!!!
6. Attend Friday night crops at Vickies. Being around other people with same interests is good for developing friendships.
7. Read more books for they are my friends.
8. Smile more. I do not want frown lines.
9. Show a RAK (random act of kindness) daily. Doing small things for others lifts not only their spirits but mine as well.
10. Show my husband the love and support he needs. He has never failed me and I do not want to push him futher away.
11. Declutter the house. Getting rid of clutter declutters the mind.
12. Send cards/letters/e-mails to my friends.
13. Continue with my hobbies because it helps me take my mind off things.
14. Stop cursing, telling inappropiate jokes and gossip.
15. Look in the mirror each morning and tell myself I love you, you are a good person, have a great day.

As I think of more postive things, I will blog it here as a reminder to myself.

:)

rules of the universe

RULES OF THE UNIVERSE

1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pilland a laxative on the same night.2. Don't worry about what people think; they don't do it very often.3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymorethan standing in a garage makes you a car.4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.5. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.6. A person, who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a niceperson. (This is very important. Pay attention! It never fails.)7. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.8. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.9. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks.10. A conscience is what hurts when all of your other parts feel so good.11. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway.12. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.Embrace your differences. Love each other.13. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.14. A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand.15. Middle age is when broadness of the mindand narrowness of the waist change places.16. Opportunities always look bigger after they have passed.17. Junk is something you've kept for yearsand throw away three weeks before you need it.18. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.19. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables youto recognize a mistake when you make it again.20. By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.21. Thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator.22. Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the realworld.23. It ain't the jeans that make your butt look fat.24. There is a very fine line between 'hobby' and 'mental illness.'25. People who want to share their religious views with youalmost never want you to share yours with them.26. You should not confuse your career with your life.27. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.28. Never lick a steak knife.29. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.30. You will never find anybody who can give you a clearand compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.31. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggeststhat you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual babyemerging from her at that moment.32. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender,religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside,we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.33. Your friends love you anyway.34. Never be afraid to try something new.Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.35. How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?

Thanks to an online neighbor for the rules.